ones again.. *sigh*..  i dunno... i stil miss her.. i havnt gone this long not seein her.. almost a month..  geez.. hope everything goes according to plan.. i kno how u feel about me and u kno how i feel about u despite all the things a mustve said and done to u.  i kno me being social chair ruins everything up but u kno He has a plan.. for now lets jus enjoy our selves.. Good Bye.

ARGH! things are just going wrong for me.. aniways.. being social chair is harder and more time consuming than i thought!.. i guess i jus need to PRIORITIZE  my time more!!!  with work, still on the verge of getting my 06 rsx , which means more work! , summer school,  HER, and YES in thinkin of goin to the AIR FORCE.. *sigh*  still thinkin of it..

so this week has been raly bz for me.. so last thursday was Eta Chapter installs.. first time i had to talk as a  cocial chair.. haha it was nerve wrackin , plus i was hella drunk!.. bad bad bad.. i gota stop drinkin for reals...  last saturday was Chi sima phi Nu class installs. i  went as a date and on my way there i got hella lost! fuckin 110 freeway..  aww my date was the best!!! she so awesome.. and yes i got me a new big sis. and her name is MZ. JENNiFER BEAAK and guess what she gave me GUCCI letters yo!!!!  wow.. can u say spoiled?! haha i love her.. she the best.. so yea of course i was faded and  thanx to my date and my big sis for takin care of me when i passed out!!  im glad they were there or else i wouldve gotten wriiten on.. dayum ZETAS!!!!  haha .. then i after i went to my uncles house to visit

While im there someone was givin me a hard time.. *sigh* .. i dont get her.. do u want me ? or do u want me not? please make up ur mind. as of now.. WERE not together.. and i dnt think we'll ever be.. its for the best.. but she is my best friend so.. yes...

im hella tired and my head hurts...  im out!

theres times when i really cant jus stay still... what is wrong with me.. A.D.D perhaps? hahaha.. so yea yesterday i went back to long to handle some business... went tah long beach to pay my bid for installs and turn in some paper at Brotman hall...

while i was there i decided tah visit my lolo and my  uncle.. it was funie how all of a sudden it hit me that life is so worth living.. and we shall not take it for granted... *sigh* i miss them both.. ..

we miss you lolo and tito..please look after our every move.. protect us..

k ima go ball up..

im out!

having to tell someone u hate them especially if u dont really mean em is really hard.. but i kno i gota do it.. she's really not worth of anithin..shell mess around ur feelings everytime.. just remember if she did all the shitty things she did to her new bf, what makes u think she aint gana do the same thing to me..

keeeeeeeeeeep sayin this to urself : its never gana be...

goodmorning everyone.. and good bye..